Visit from Dad

I love my weekends. It’s my time to snuggle, cuddle, relax, and be showered with love.  I’ve finally adjusted to sleeping alone and have come up with a workable routine for now.  It’s been a huge adjustment and not all of my needs are being filled at this time, but I’m working on creating a livable situation.  My weeks are filled with working 8-5, going to the gym, and then coming home and verging out on the couch, eating a simple dinner on the couch, watching tv and surfing the internet.  I tried to be well rounded on the weekends, spend time with friends, meet other singles, but the truth is for now all I really want to do is spend my weekends alone at my house with my puppies watching holiday movies.  It’s the holidays and there are tons of parties, but honestly it seems to be bit more effort then it’s worth. I work so hard doing the week, go to the gym nearly every day and spent way too much time crying or trying not to cry that on the weekends I want a guaranteed good time. I want to relax and cuddle and be loved.  And for now my puppies do that for me.  I have a ton of holiday movies on the DVR so we’re set for a few more weekends.

With that being said I wasn’t sure how it would be to add my Dad to the mix. I’ve been missing him so I invited him up for the weekend. And let me say it turned out a million times better then expected. I always forget how much I enjoy spending time with him and how unstressful it is to have him around.  We had a wonderful relaxing weekend together and I was soooo sad to see him leave.   I look forward to getting together again with him soon.

It’s sad I haven’t seen much of my parents this past year as I’ve felt so ill that all I wanted was to be alone at home. And haven’t felt well enough to drive down to see them.   The allergy shots twice a week really took a toll on me. All I did was lay around on ice packs.  So now that I’ve moved onto maintenance I’m feeling much better in that regard. 

I kind of feel guilty that I’m not being more social, making an effort to date. But, then I think I just ended a long-term relationship a horrible marriage, and had my heart broken more time then imaginable in such a short time. That should give me some free time.  

I finally figured out why my heart aches so much. I thought it was from the last man that broke my heart, but I've come to realize that it's not just him, it's an accumulation of all heart breaks that I have recently suffered.  My hopes and dreams keep getting shattered. 

Free is not always Fabulous

Last week the gym had free fitness testing and I figured why not, it’s free.  I went in feeling great and left annoyed and feeling fat. 

I shouldn’t be annoyed; she was just a woman doing her job from a script.  I just wish people would look outside the box once in a while.  When I say I am on a special diet of meat, fruit, and veggies. I know typically people over eat on the holidays, but look at me. Listen to me. And then you won’t ask me if I overeat during the holidays.  And if I did would it be so bad if I ate too many carrots, broccoli, or fruit? The only eating issue I have is not eating enough. Seriously I was embarrassed when I had to list for my nutritionist what I eat in a day.  Life would be so different if I had a personal chef.  It’s not that I don’t love a good meal; I just have no energy or interest in making it.  So, yes I have an eating problem, but it’s not overeating or eating unhealthy.

Next I have to comment on the Body Fat Pinch Test.   I am pretty sure these things are far from accurate as there is so much room for human error. 

Well Rounded Couch Potato

You know you had a good weekend when you cry when it’s over because you don’t want it to end. I try my best to be well rounded. Attend singles events, spend time with friends, cook, go grocery shopping, do laundry, wash dishes, lounge on the couch, snuggle puppies, and go to church.

Honestly all I wanted to do Friday night was go home and snuggle some puppies and watch some uplifting holiday movies on TV. But I forced myself to round out my life and went to a Singles Christmas party.  Let me tell you it was hard to resist not going to the other party where the guy I liked was. But, I resisted knowing that in the end it would only make my heart ache more.  I made a real effort to mingle at the Single’s Christmas party.  I opted not to sit with my roommate so I could make a real effort to put myself out there and met new men. Thus I choose a table with 3 men I didn’t know. Two were around my age. I choose a seat between a guy close to my age and another that was old enough to be my grandfather.  I really tried to strike up a conversation with the guy who was around my age, but as hard as I tried it just wasn’t going anywhere. I had a more fulfilling conversation with a friend of his who joined us and the older gentleman next to me.  After dinner I went home and was so happy to end the evening snuggling my puppies on the couch and watching a movie.

Saturday was a successful day. I got up early went grocery shopping and made Chicken Masala and Pork Chops for lunches this week. Then after doing a ton of dishes I finally made it out to my Girlfriends’ then we went downtown for dinner and to see a show.  Hanging out with my girlfriend and dinner was the highlight of the evening. We went to a bar and had burgers. In Old Town bars are the only place that has reasonably priced food and ambiance.  I was daring and tried the Skippy Burger, I figured if it’s been on the menu that long it must be good and surprisingly it was very tasty. My girlfriend played it safe and ordered the island burger.

Sunday was filled with Church and lounging on the couch while watching cute holiday movies surfing the web, and blogging.  I was sad to have the weekend end. The good thing is things are going well again with Josh and his girlfriend and it’s snowboarding season so I should have many more weekends with the house to myself for more puppy time.  I know I sound like a such couch potato, but I don’t feel that bad because I go to the gym almost everyday after work and unless Mr. Right suddenly appears in my life this is the only loving I’m getting for while and this is better then settling for Mr. Wrong just so I can be snuggled.

Presentation Matters

The reality of online dating. People Photoshop their photos or post ones that are a few years old, others shave a few pounds off, a few too many probably fib on their marital status, and other add or take a way a few years.  So, it’s not that shocking when the truth comes out.  On the other hand I was quite turned off with this guy's attitude.

I'm new at online dating so this is probably a mild story compared to other's experiences. After 3-weeks this guy finally comes clean about his age. In his words he “was tired of getting chased by 60 something’s” so he shaved 5 years off his life.  He stated he was 45 and he's really 50.  I'm sorry, but his reasoning behind him lying about his age isn't very believable. As I state I’m 37(my actual age) and have many from the 60+ crowd contacting me so I’m not sure how stating you’re 45, verses 50 would really make a difference.  But, what really got me was what he said next: “While I have no problem dating a 40 something granny (who wouldn't want to make it with a hot young grandma---ever seen the 40 year old virgin movie?), a 60 something granny holds no allure nor attraction for me. Not one! Even if she has a ton of money.....well NO.”

After reading that, the 1^st thing that came to my mind was “Why is it that you think you are above dating someone who is 10years older, but you think I have to settle with dating someone 13 years older?” 

He obviously doesn’t think much of me if he thinks I have to stoop to that level. I’m sorry BUDDY, but I am in no way DESPERATE.  I’m young, hot, honest,smart and  I deserves the same. 

I have not shaved or added a few years to my profile. All of my pictures were taken this year and none were photo shopped, all were snapshots. I did not shave off a few pounds. And I did not fib about my marital status and I have the papers to prove it.

(For those of my friends who are married to someone and there is a big age gap, I have no issues with it. I’m happy for you. In eternity age doesn’t matter.  My issue isn’t his age it’s with his presentation and attitude.)