After the storm there is a rainbow.

For the last few days it's felt like a dark cloud has been hovering over.  When it rains it pours and it feels like the whole world come crashing down on me. Thanks to some great friends and personal determination I can now say that the storm has resided and now I have been blessed with a rainbow.To tell you the truth, nothing has changed. Life is virtually the same. I've just changed my perspective.  

I recently prayed to God to increase my patience and he did just that. He provided me with opportunities for me to learn patience.  Not exactly what I hoped for when I said that prayer. I had hoped to be handed everything on a silver platter so I wouldn't have to use patience, but that is not how God works.

I'm sorry to say that under great amounts of stress I don't always say or do the right thing. I am really good at putting my foot in my mouth. I just don't operate very well in panic mode and seem to dig myself deeper into my crisis instead of pull myself out.  And boy did I dig a big hole for me this time. I am sorry to all those that I affected. 

I have to say thank you to my friends that work so hard to convince me that "everything happens for a reason" and there is nothing really to stress about. Thank you to the friends that tell me to look on the bright side of things and get me to laugh. I can't believe how much I was laughing, giggling and smiling the last 2 days as the _hit was hitting the fan.  Thank you all for that.

I have to say I love Joel Osteen. I was listening to his talk on Happiness today as I was cooking dinner.  He  reminded me that I am the only one who controls my own happiness. That is so true. And today I choose to be happy.