Out with the old and in with the new

It’s that time of year again. Time to get rid of all those things that limit you and aren’t helping you to reach your potential.  It’s more then just a time to make New Year’s Resolutions. It’s time to make lifestyle changes.  You may not be able to change all of life’s circumstances and situations but you have power to change how you react.   Over the past year and a half I have done away with many dreams and replaced them with new dreams. I have ended relationships and fostered new relationships. I have bounced around like a little rubber ball at times and it appears like I may have found a small patch of sand to contain me for the moment, I feel pretty grounded that is until another wind storm comes, blows away the sand and I end up bouncing around again. I hope prior to then I will be able to grow strong enough roots so I will be firm in my foundation.  Here are some changes I have made and other changes I want to make. If all goes as planned these changes will help me to develop the roots I need to keep myself on the path to a reach my potential.

• During this past year I have replaced my house with an apartment, the paperwork is still in progress, but in September I finally moved. 
• I finally took a leap of faith and left my husband for a new healthier life. 
• I made the switch from a group Health Insurance to a private plan. That was a long stressful process, but if finally ended when I got proof of insurance last Thursday. 
• I went from working part time to working full time. I didn’t realize how difficult of an adjustment it would be. I never realized working full time would be such a domino effect.  I have had to juggle my whole lifestyle and still haven’t quite figured out how to get everything done.  Going to the gym and exercising bounced out of the equation. The same with writing, quilting, and cooking.  I am having a hard time working them all back in.  I have also juggled in some cooking, but not much.  I am still cooking some and freezing meals, which I eat for lunch, but I’m lacking on variety.  After I moved I was doing ok on the exercise thing until this guy I was dating said I wasn’t getting a good work out. I felt so judged by him, embarrassed, and then depressed that I totally stopped exercising. I shouldn’t of listened to him because he was not one to judge he was over weight and totally out of shape. But, I did and totally got out of the habit. Thank goodness I got that scumbag out of my life, but his mean words and the depression he caused didn't leave with him. I know I shouldn’t let what people say hurt me, but I do. That is something I need to work on. Till I’ve perfected it I’m just going to have to do away with mean hurtful people. 
• To keep my own sanity it's time I clean my closets of some so called friends.  Good bye to all those one sided friendships, to those of you that don't like the way I dress, the way I laugh, etc. It's not always easy to let go of dysfunctional friendships, especially if you really love and care about those people. But unless the friendships become healthy sometimes it's better just to let go. It's time to replace unhealthy relationships with people who say “Never Change.”  Those are true friends. It's not the number of friends one has it's the quality of those friends.  It's time to surround myself with those people that make me want to be a better person when I am around them.
• Now for the fun stuff, the things that keep one balanced between work and play. Donate all the clothing I never wear and buy a new wardrobe. Including new shoes and accessories. This may not be happening any time soon, but if you fail to plan then you plan to fail so I might as well dream for the impossible as if it's possible.
• Taking more vacations. I want to visit Europe, Africa, Israel, China, Michigan, Canada, Fiji, Hawaii, everywhere. I have been on line looking at different tour groups but I really need to find some recommendations from friends who have traveled alone. I know it's not safe for women to travel alone, but as for now I don't know anyone who wants to and can afford to take a trip. So if anyone reading this wants to go with me or knows of someone let me know.
• Take more spontaneous trips.
• Go sky diving. Because I can. I am young and healthy and it's time for me to do all those things that I have always wanted to do, but haven't. There may be no tomorrow, so I 'd better get going and stop procrastinating.  
• Have fun  and spend more time doing things and with people that make me Laugh until I cry. 
• Be less self-conscious and more out going.
• Love like I've never been hurt.
• Dance like no one is watching
• Work and Play as if there is no tomorrow.
• Dream as if everything is possible