It's not my fault.

I know it isn't my fault, but it's still nice to hear it from my husband that he is taking full responsibility for his actions.

After 4month of constant blame for this or that, it was nice to finally hear my husband take ownership of his wrong doings. He finally admitted that he drove me out of our home. The home that I worked so hard to create. The home that was once consecrated that he defiled and when I moved in I decorated it beautifully and filled it with uplifting images. Trying to create a haven from the world. 

He is also taking ownership of his actions & thoughts. As I never did anything to break his trust and it's all in his head. He said he is going to trust me. That is a relief. I hope it lasts.

He said he is going to stop trying to control me.  That is a first as he keeps denying that he is trying to control me. That is when he isn't saying it or e-mailing me and telling me he wants to control me.

I think he is finally realizing that he has destroyed our relationship one flake at a time. Just like a snowball grows bigger as it rolls down the mountain. He now has the choice to let the snowball keep growing or to stop it dead in it's tracks. I told him it is up to him. He is the only one who has control. He controls himself and all of his actions.  

Let's see what he chooses.