Celiac Disease or is it?

Don't worry I'm not starving. There is still a lot I can eat.

I’ve been seeing this nutritionist since around September last year. My psychologist suggested I go in hopes she could help me with my moods since I haven’t had much success over the years with various RX.  After a battery of tests she concludes that I have Celiac Disease,gluten sensitivity and I should avoid certain foods as they may be the cause of my mood disorder.  After learning this I proceeded to eliminate: gluten, grain, soy, dairy, corn, rice, potatoes, and tapioca from my diet.  I figure why not give it a try and see if what she says is true and those foods are really effecting my moods.

Here I am 6 months later plugging away on the same diet wondering if it’s just a hoax. I mean it’s not like I break out in hives when I eat any of these foods or go into anaphylactic shock.  And to be honest with everything going on in my life I have so many variables how do you really attribute my moods to any one factor.

To name a few variables: My many moves and the different environment associated with each move, recovering from the moves, being abused and living in fear, dealing with the courts, anxiety and fear with dealing with Randy, allergies, stress at work, getting laid off and looking for a job, stressing about money, and allergy shots.

For the most part it’s pretty easy to stick to the diet as long as I avoid going out to eat.  Over the last month I’ve been slowly adding baked goods to my diet as I experiment with Almond flour and agave nectar.  For some reason when you aren’t allowed to have something you seem to have a tendency to crave it. And I seem to have a little more time on my hands to bake. Or shall I say I’m so stressed out that baking gives me something to focus on and possibility I can see instant results as with the rest of my life I’m having to practice an over abundance of patience. The thing that is beginning to eat at me is the high cost of ingredients and the impending lack of income due to my being laid off.  And just the stress of having to think can I eat that or not and people wanting to take me out to eat.

I was referred to this nutritionist from a reliable source so I don’t want to totally disregard all she has said, but I really wonder if what she said is true or am I just wasting my energy and money on trying to hard to stick on my diet.  

My poor body has really taken a beating these past 3 months.  And as much as I try to suck it up and smile, the seams are wearing thing and things are just bubbling out.  Sadly I have cried myself to sleep the past few nights.  My body just can’t handle this much stress physically and mentally. It’s just too much.  I’m still plugging away at work, hoping that I will get paid for another day. I keep going to interviews, smiling and trying to say all the right things.  And I keep enduring these allergy shots even though they are killing me.  I have been going biweekly till the 12^th of March when I broke out in horrible hives.  Thankfully lots of Benadryl kept me well enough that I didn’t have to visit the ER. Then I went back the following Monday and got another shot with a much lower dosage.  To my dismay I broke out in hives again, not as bad this time and that may only be due to taking lots of Benadryl right away.  These allergy shots just aren’t agreeing with me anymore. They were just annoying and made me irritable to a controllable point, but now they are past that and it reminds me of why I quit them last time.  Mason thinks I should quit them till things are more stable in my life.  Maybe he’s right, but I’m so close that I don’t want to give up.  If I stop now I’ll have to do them all over again, you can’t just stop and pick up later you have to start back at square 1. (I’ve already endured 36 shots I don’t want to have to do that all over again. It wasn’t fun the first time. ) With if in a month they will be done and my allergies will be better and then I will only have to go in every 2-3 weeks. The question is can we make it that long.  Can my body endure it for that long and can Mason be patient with me for that much longer.