I’m so frustrated that I’ve been sick for so long and unable
to take care of myself. It’s frustrating to be so burn out of cooking and
eating that you have to relay on others to do it for you. And because I’ve been so sick I’m not noticed
what has been going on around me. Now that I’m feeling a bit better my eyes are
opened and I am shocked at what I’ve let happen to me. Now that my eyes have been fully open I
realize that I need to move yet again, but I wonder if I have the strength to
do it, to take care of myself. I feel so
dumb for letting this happen to me yet again.
I kick myself for being so smart, yet so dumb. I used to pray the small prayer, help them
figure out what is wrong with me, now I’ve moved on to the big bold prayers,
please heal me.
Now that my eyes have been opened now it’s time to do
something about it. My parents have
been so gracious and helpful in taking most of my stuff home and storing for
me. I am so blessed that I don’t have to
toss it or pay for a storage unit. Now I’m down to just a few boxes and if we
eliminated all the winter clothing there wouldn’t be that much at all.
Well, it’s time to act as if I’m healed or humble myself
lots and relay on those that love me to take care of me and move on. So yes Mom, don’t be surprised if I ask you
to start coming up on the weekends and cooking for me because I can’t do it
myself. At least I’m blessed to have
this option. Now it’s time to find somewhere to move. My guess, it wouldn’t be
my 1st choice, but close to work.
The Journey begins yet again to move.
What happened Mel?
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