Looking Forward

“You can’t change what has already happened so choose to look ahead instead of behind you.” Joel Osteen. That is so much easier said then done.

I’m still kind of feeling annoyed about the events that transpired the other night. My roommate assured me that he was right upstairs and was listening. He said there was no way he was going to suggest we take our conversation in the other room, because the only other private rooms would be the bedrooms and he wasn’t going to let that happen, so he figured to be a polite host he would leave the room. On the other hand he wasn’t going to sit by idly either. He said he was upstairs checking his email he turned off the air purifiers and music and was ready to run downstairs if he heard me calling or screaming. I feel a little better. In the end he promised to never let it happen again. Even if I am unable to speak up he promises next time that he will speak in my behalf and not let me get in another awkward situation.

Looking forward. I’m about done with my classes at WEAVE. It’s hard to believe that I’ve been going for 13 weeks so far. Time really flies. Going to the classes has been a good experience and I’ll miss them when I’m done. They constantly remind me that I’m not crazy, I didn’t do anything wrong, and I was abused in more way then I realized. They helped me to look forward to a brighter healthier future. They taught me skills that I have implemented into my own life and hope to implement into my future families lives.  I’ve realized that I forget a lot so classes like these are good for me they help me to remember those important things.

I’m not only looking forward. I’m moving forward with my life.  I’m not sitting around holding my breath and waiting, I’m moving on. It’s hard to believe that I’ve been at my new place for over 2 months now. I love my new place. I love the energy and spirit it has within. I feel safe and at peace there and I finally look forward to going home. That is new and exciting for me. I felt this same way when I was single in my own.

I have had some up and downs this last month with my health and I’ve put my body through a lot, but hopefully I’ll be done taking a toll on my body soon. It’s hard to believe that I only started allergy shots 16 days ago and in that time I’ve had 20 shots.  I’m quickly moving ahead and will achieve the full dosage by March 16^th if all goes as planned. And during that time I will have 20 more shots.  This will be a true test on my body as this last week hasn’t gone so well, so I eagerly look forward to the end of March and hope for some real relief by then. I figure I can endure all of this pain that I have put my body through because the long-term results are worth it.