Commitment Issues

I admit it, I have big commitment issues. I guess that is why I'm having such a hard time finding a place to live. I just can't bear to commit to a 6, 9, or 12 month lease. I just got out of a 7yr commitment and I just don't want to be tied down any more. My hope is when I fall head over heels in love with a place I will be so blinded by my love that I will be able to commit. That's my theory for now.

As I evaluate my life, there is very little that I am committed to right now.  I have a membership to Massage Envy that I love, but it's now month to month, same with my gym membership. On the other hand I am a healthy person so I do get on the stair stepper most everyday. I am just a little lazy when it comes to going to the gym. I'm going to work on that. I don't want to be one of those people that just lets them selves go. At least I have great legs. The diligent exercise has paid off. I'm back down to 114 lbs. That makes me so happy.  It was really upsetting a couple of months back when my ex weighed only a few lbs more then me.  Yes, I have weight issues, I firmly believe men should weigh more then women they are involved with.

I have a cell phone contract, but I'm not committed to keep my data plan. When I got my Droid I made sure that if I wanted to they would allow me to switch back to my old cell and drop the data plan

Now that all my grandparents have passed away there are no more family traditions for the holidays so depending on who makes the best offer that is where I go.

And as for my job it's really flexible so I don't even have to commit to come into work every day.

As for my friends if I commit to be there I really will be there, on the other hand if there is an emergency I have no problem dropping everything for you. Like the other day, I spent the day in the bay area helping my friend prep for a test. She needed me and I was there.

Maybe it's all perspective. It's not that I have commitment issues. I just like being flexible and am very spontaneous.  I never thought of myself as very spontaneous. I thought I liked everything all planned out, or maybe that was how I used to be like. Last year I took this personality test and realized I'm as spontaneous as it gets. So if you're looking for a good time and want to have fun, I'm full of surprises. I'm up to doing most anything and love to try new things. On the other hand I'm not into roller coasters, but what do you expect, you know exactly what happens, there are no surprises there. Next on my list of things to do is Bull Riding and sky diving. Who want's to join me? Friday I think I found some friends to try out the mechanical bull with me. It's not the real thing, but it will have to do for now.

I'm thinking when I have kids I will have more obligations and be more committed. But till then I'm footloose and fancy-free. (I know for those of you that know me, me saying "when I have kids" is a shocker, but I figure one day it will probably happen.)