I’m trying to get my self off of Santa’s Naughty list and move over to the good list. I have to say it’s so much easier being naughty then being good. Being good takes a lot of work. You can’t just go with the flow. You have to make a conscious effort all the time in what you do, say, read, watch, etc. I am not so far down the naughty list that I’m going to get coal in my stocking, but I want to move up on the good list. I want to fill my life with good, better and best choices.
I know that if I keep doing what I’ve always done I will end up where I’ve always been. As you all know change is difficult and we usually avoid change at all cost. No one likes change, but I know I need to change. This brings me to my Christmas wish. All I want for Christmas is motivation. I don’t think I’m asking for too much. I’m not asking to end world hunger or for peace on earth. Although those are things I’d love to have too. I’m also not asking to win the lottery or for a million dollars. All I want is to be more motivated. I have no idea why I’m so unmotivated. It seems like just a year and a half ago I had it all together. I was going to the gym everyday, working on my book and really working towards the person I wanted to be. Then I lost my vision. Some of that can be due to my life turned upside down. I now have to work full time so I no longer have the luxury of working out in the morning, working on my book, sewing, etc in the morning and then showing up to work at noon. I now need to get up early and get to work and I can’t take days off like I used to. At the same time there are still 24 hours in a day and being a college graduate I should be talented enough to juggle my schedule so I can still fit everything in. I know my problem is not the lack of time; instead it’s my lack of time management and motivation. Getting out of bed is a struggle for me each day. For some reason I am just not motivated to get out of bed even thought I know I need to get to work to pay my bills. Money just isn’t motivation enough for me. Getting up early so I have enough time to work out before I go to work isn’t motivating me either. I used to be motivated to work out. I used to love going to Gold’s Gym after work and working out for a few hours. That was when I was into body building. Maybe I need to start going to the gym after work instead of trying to go before work. That is an idea.
I’m not sure how I can motivate myself to make the time to work on my book everyday. Working on my book was helping me to become the person I want to be. It was a magical time for me. It gave me a glimpse of how things can be in my life if I put in the effort. So the best choice for me would be to work on my book a little each day.
There are other changes I need to make in life to become the person I am destined to be.
I need to improve my sense of humor. I have a tendency to come up with a bit too many naughty jokes. I also need to work on being less sarcastic. This is something I’ve been working on for a while, but I still haven’t mastered. I really believe I can have just as much fun and laugh just as much with more family friendly jokes.
I also need to be more conscious of the company I keep and what I do for entertainment. I also need to go to bed when I’m tired. There is always tomorrow. I know in a few of my blogs I say that I need to live like there is no tomorrow and I mean that, but I have also learned that I have a tendency to make bad decisions and say the wrong things when I’m tired.
I believe that if I make these changes in my life and become that person I want to be I can still have fun, maybe even more fun. I see kids all the time laughing and having a good time, doing the goofiest things to entertain them selves. I need to be more like them. As I transform myself into the person I want to be I know I may loose some of my so-called friends along the way and that’s ok. I know that my true friends will stick around. In the end I will make new friend, attracting those people who have the same goals, vision, and standards as I do.
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