I want it animal style.

Love is so frustrating at times. For years I did my best to avoid rejection by not going after guys unless they first showed interest in me. This yielded many dates and later many relationships. I am pretty, fun, and there is always a plethora of guys on my doorstep. Thus said if I were one of those people that had to be in a relationship all the time I could easily be in one now. The thing is I am not the same girl I used to be. I no longer want to order off the printed menu. I want to order off the secret menu. I am done with eating plain boring hamburger. I want it animal style.

I wish I could say my new dating strategy is working, but that is far from true. I really wish I could hire Hitch and he could hand me the right broomstick because I am tired of falling flat on my face. For some unknown reason the guys I’m interested in just can’t seem to realize that I’m the perfect girl for them.

I have to say not all is lost. My hunt has yielded fun, adventure, and laughter. Stepping out of my comfort zone has resulted in spontaneous trips, crazy stunts, unexpected run-ins, and lots of stories that will go down in history.

You may call me crazy for continuing to put myself out there after all I’ve been though. You’re right I am crazy. I’m crazy for love. I have to say I don’t recall ever having my heart broken so many times in such a short time. The thing is as much as it hurts to have your broken heart it is worth it to feel. I’d much rather suffer from a broken heart then to lock my heart up and never have the chance to fall in love. Falling in love and being in love is such a wonderful feeling that the pain of a little heart break is worth it.

I know if I continue to put my heart on the line some day someone will treasure it. I have faith in God that if I follow his commandments and his promptings I will be led to the right place at the right time where I will come across the love of my life. He will sweep me off my feet and shower me with love.

I refuse to say “all the good ones are taken," And if for some strange reason that is the case I am willing to wait till he become available again and I'm willing to fight for love. I didn’t realize my self worth before, but now I know I have lots to offer and I am worth fighting for. Thus said I am going to be with an equally amazing man who is also worth fighting for. We’re going to have this amazing spiritual connection, we’re best friends, we find each other totally irresistible, and we are deliriously happy together. Neither of us is going to be perfect, but we are perfect for each other. In addition our lives won’t be easy, but together we’re able to conquer any trial we are faced.

I know I’m over the top at times and that is one of the things he’s going to love about me. My enthusiasm and spontaneity is what is going to set me aside from all the other women he has ever dated. He is going to love that not two days will ever be the same. And that everything I do is because I love him. To him I will be the perfect housewife and the lover on the side all wrapped into one. I am every man’s dream come true.