Get back on the saddle and try again.

I have been bucked off the saddle of life and love many times. There have been many times in my life I have laid on the ground and wallowed in my misery unwilling to get back up and try again.  I am done wallowing in my misery and have gotten back on the saddle. It’s not an easy task to stay on the saddle. For the most part I play it safe and keep my horse going at a leisurely walk.  Ensuring that I don’t get bucked off again.  On the other hand I am very spontaneous and some times I see the light and take my horse though the full obstacle course, jumping over the jumps and swishing pass the barrow course.  It is those times that my faith in life and love are renewed.

I am a strong believer in God. Even though I have never met God face to face. I firmly believe that he exists and he has a plan for me. He is a nice loving God that has given me all I need to not only muddle through life, but to achieve the unachievable.  I am far from perfect, but I am perfect for the life he has planned for me. I am well equipped to handle the challenge he will and has placed before me in this obstacle course called life.  This strong belief, that God has a plan for me and belief that during his creation of me he gave me all I need to succeed is life is why I go on living.  It’s not always easy for me to always remember this and sometimes it takes prodding from friends to get me back on track.  I still fall off my horse at times, but with the love of my friends I now get back on much more quickly.

I also have a strong belief in Love, it’s like my strong belief in God I’ve never seen it or held on to it, but I believe it exists.  I have been in and out of many relationships thinking this is what love is and I have been dead wrong. It’s tough to have one’s heart broken and crushed into a million pieces and it takes forever to mend a broken heart. Once one’s heart has been mended it isn’t easy to put it on the line again.  But, like my strong belief in God that keeps me going I also need to have faith that I will one day find true love. It also gives me something to look forward to and live for.