Day 1 of caring for Me

Day 1 of taking care of me went ok, but didn't yield the results I had hoped for.  Thinking about it now, I guess I had unrealistic expectations. For some reason I thought doing a few things for me would fill my whole well, but it didn't. I'm learning that it will take time. I have also learned that you can never really catch up on sleep.

For Day #1's activities I got.  It was a good massage, but my muscles have been so tight for so long it's painful to have anyone touch my lower back. So, she did what she could and I'll need to keep going back till I can get my body healed. I wanted to go back that evening or today  for some more work, but she said I needed more time to heal so I won't be able to go back till next week. So, even thought I am finally sleeping in my own bead my body still aches all over.  

After work I actually went straight home, well as straight home as I'll ever get. It was nice not having to run to any appointments. When I got home I actually had time and it was cool enough in my apartment to get on the stair stepper. After that I sat on the couch and ate dinner and watched NCIS. Then I worked on my wedding album. 3 episodes later and half of some other movie I compiled the above wedding album. I'm going to send it off to LULU to get printed. They have an offer now that you can get your first book free and all you have to pay is shipping. If I choose snail mail it only costs me $4.

I am very disappointed that I didn't have the energy or make the time to get to the store last night. I thought of going on the way home, but didn't want to risk being too tired and it being too late and me being too hunger when I got back that I wouldn't get on the stair stepper. I really wish the store was closer. Oh, well. I guess I can just be sad about that as everything is give and take. Thought I really wanted to buy some strawberries so I could make a smoothy for breakfast. I have the protein powder already and bananas, but needed some berries to go with it.  Maybe I can muster up the energy after Relief Society tonight.

The night didn't end so well as I talked to my husband on the phone and I was reminded that this will be my last Relief Society Night Activity and I won't be able to go to the bi-monthly pot luck dinners anymore.  That really depressed me as I once again morned the loss of the monthly socializing activity at church.  For some of you it may not be a big deal, but to me it is. I have a very hard time finding the time and energy to socialize.  Change sucks some times, even though you know it's for the best. I still have the right to mourn the loss.

Then we talked about the wedding album I just put together and I felt like an inadequate wife as I told him about it.  It is in no way crafty. It's not cutesy at all like he's seen albums in the past. It's more of bare bones and to the point. And may I say quite high-tech as when it will be delivered it will look like a professional book. But it's still in no way cute. There are no cute quotes, frills or lace. It's plain black and white. So I went to bed feeling like I had let him down. And it's not like I don't have the materials to make a pretty cute album. I do. I have a couple of Creative Memories Scrap-booking kits that I can use to put together our wedding album and I'd really like to do that one day, but for now I don't have the energy or time to put it together. My energy level for the night was to sit on my butt on the couch watching NCIS and hitting buttons on my computer.

What can I say, I'm tired, worn out and love a great deal. I'm hoping that today ends on a happier note and I feel a little better about myself when my head hits the pillow.