God's perfect and he made ME

So, Me, Myself, and I started our own bible study tonight with the arrival of the book “Completely loved, Recognizing God’s Passionate Pursuit of Us.” By Sharron Ethridge.  It’s a 30-day Guide to Loving Jesus with out Limits.

Day 1: Completely Loved by: Our Creator (Genesis Chapters 1 and 2)

Q: Do I believe that when God formed me, He was pleased with His Handiwork? What does today’s passage teach me about my Creator? What might God want to teach me about myself?

Yes, I believe God created me and I also believe he is perfect, and thus I believe that he didn’t make a mistake when he created me the way that I am.  I’m not exactly sure what his plan is for me, but he must have a great vision for me to create me the way that he created me.   Personally there are many times I’d like to swap out parts of me like you can with a computer. You can swap out motherboards, graphics card, memory chip, and you can swap out your old floppy for a new DVD reader/writer.  

Since I was unable to swap out a stress less memory chip, I had to opt for getting a massage today.  Good thing he created other people to help me along this journey called life.

And since God didn’t give us foolproof bodies, he created modern technology so with that being said I also joined a gym today.   I’ve wanted to get back into working out for a while now, especially since I’m not longer swimming everyday.  They just opened a new gym across the parking lot from my work so I checked it out at lunch. It’s dinky and expensive, but out of sheer convenience I joined.  It’s a month-to-month contract so we’ll see how it goes.  It I can get a good work out in and it’s not too busy it will be money well spent.

God has taught me that he did not create us to be alone.  And thus I don’t have to everything alone. This makes me reflect on the past 2years. I was doing really well for myself in 2011 and thought wouldn’t it be nice to share the joy with someone, I just sadly chose the wrong helpmeet. Instead of Randy helping, he drained the life out of me.  I had finally recovered from being burnt out and he just drained my bucket again, leaving even deeper scares.

What do you do when you have nothing else left to give; you hope to find someone who has an overflowing resource to share.  And that is what I thought I had found in Mason.  Oh, he did help me get though the hump. He helped me battle allergy shots head on as my body fiercely rejected them. He teamed up with my dietitian and together we were able to find a workable diet for me.  My love and gratitude flowed freely as he assisted me and we had many good times together. But, what I didn’t know was he would also leave me even more scared and weathered.  He just texted me and said: “You are the most wonderful person with amazing abilities to adapt and overcome.  I listen to the trickle of the rainfall tonight and think of you.  Our destiny may not be together but, you will forever have a place in my heart.” 

God has taught me that I should never give up. There is a helpmeet out there for me. One that will blow life into me and will respect, love, and cherish me. One that will add to my bucket so it will always be overflowing and never drained dry.

Till then I will continue to work on me.  Get my life back in balance. That means scheduling me time. Time to get massages, exercise, relax, quilt, have fun, laugh, and travel.